(Throwback to 2010. Photoshoot with Jeremy)
And so, the witching hour begins. Consuming. Flipping through lost memories of my teens. Oh where has the time gone? The drastic takeover of change has left me speechless. Theres a lot I miss about my life. A lot I wish I could go back to. But, the present’s looking pretty good and my future, even better. I’m really and truly excited to move to Sydney next year. Of course, a part of me is absolutely terrified. But it’s been my long awaited transition and I can’t be caving into cold feet right now that everything’s pretty much cemented.
Been stressing over accommodation for my first semester. Sydney University’s Village seems to be the best choice at the moment. So lets just hope that all works out.
Well, not much in other news. Been cruising through 2013 for the most of it. Been so thankful to have had much better trips this year. Many have reached an all time high. So many adventures. Wish I could name them all. Looking forward to finally being around for Christmas and New Years this year before the big move. Hopefully it’ll be good this year. My past year’s celebrating the ‘joyful’ season have proven to lack in the jolly and merry. So, fingers crossed !
Anyway, I think that about wraps up insomnia hour. Time for bed. And maybe just one more cigarette.
Hold our naked sheets
A colored breath we’ll see
Here nods on top of me
Oh how the heart it beats
When, when, when we’re older
When, when, when we’re older
Can I still come over?
23rd July, 2013
To our dearest Daughter, Sarah
For you, it is a wonderful time to come of age. You live in a time that affords you the opportunity to fulfill all your dreams and wishes.
And you must never believe otherwise.
Time goes by so very quickly. Absolutely nothing in this world can stop its advance. So make the very best of every minute, every hour, and every day of your life. But know, the quality of your life is of your choosing. Choose well, Sarah.
Your mother and I, we have brought you this far. And it is as far as we can go. To shape the rest of your life, it is you who will determine that.
You life’s journey will be long, and along the way, inevitably, you will face challenges and dilemmas, happiness and sorrow, success and failure, fulfillment and disappointments.
It is simply, the natural course of life. Revel in it for in the midst of it all, it keeps you refreshed and gives you a sense of purpose beyond the material. In short, live your life to the full.
Be strong in mind and heart. But be kind. Be polite. Be forgiving.
Be hard on yourself, but see also the good in yourself.
Be resolute in what you want in life and out of life, but never lose yourself for it.
Always stay true to what you believe in. And never, ever, forget where you came from, with respect and honor.
Our parting gift to you, on this your 21st birthday, is to let you know how proud we are of you. In so many ways you have given us cause to be eternally grateful to God for having you in our lives. And as you chart your life ahead, know that your mother and I will always be beside you.
We wish you many happy returns of the day on your 21st birthday, and from this day, all the happiness and success life has to offer.
Mum & Dad
This is my new tattoo. People always ask what it is and I tell them it’s the signature of my favorite artist which is true, however there is much more to it. I was sexually assaulted when I was 11 by an older family member. It was technically the first sexual experience I’ve ever had. I was robbed of my innocence and everything I knew about love, beauty and protection was dismissed. A few years earlier, I went on a family trip to Brazil and met a street artist. He sketched the most beautiful picture of a woman I’ve ever seen and ran after me because he wanted me to have his drawing. I still have the drawing today. He was the first person to ever make me feel beautiful so I wanted his signature on my body to write over the scar my family member left on me. To me, it’s about resilience, strength and seeing the beautiful parts of your life. Don’t let anyone leave a scar on you that you don’t want.
And it’s crystal clear that I don’t ever want it to end
If I had my way, I would never leave
Keep building these random memories
Turning our days into melodies
But since I can’t stay…
I’ll just keep playing back
These fragments of time
Everywhere I go, these moments will shine
Leaving for the airport in 3 hours! Bangkok, I’m coming for you.