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Been feeling extremely out of sorts today. If that even means anything. This weekend has gone by so fast, and I just hate that I have an early morning flight to Narita-LA tomorrow when I’m feeling this shitty. The come downs of alcohol have proved to be a killa. 

Nevertheless, the weekend was great. Getting completely intoxicated seems to be my forte for now. Something that keeps me from falling over the edge. It’s just easier not to think. And better not to care. Not referring to my well being of course, though from the amounts of alcohol consumed I guess that can be ruled out. But more towards everything else. Sometimes I watch Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind and wish I could just erase, well you know. Maybe it would bring me back to some form of normalcy, stability. The better side of me. And not become, what I have become now.

“Love is an invitation to death, not life, and its flutters in the heart are as much the knell of an ending as the rattle in a corpse’s throat.”

Update.

Eventhough I’ve only been away for a couple of days, it feels like forever since I’ve been home. Don’t get me wrong, the trip’s been great. Moscow, Houston, now back to Moscow. Being so far off tends to engulf me in a daydream. But I’m looking forward to heading back home. 

Don’t plan on doing much on my last day in Moscow. Though I do feel room service has gotten the better of me.. So I’ll probably head out for some beef stroganoff and last minute souvenir shopping. 

Hope everyone’s had a good week! Will be posting photos later tonight.

Till then, x

“Feel So Close” (Benny Benassi Remix) - Calvin Harris

I wear my heart upon my sleeve, like a big deal.